Hurt

Sorry this is a sad post...

Life continues on.We are made too aware of that in the matters of those taken from us too soon, well before their time.  My life has been inundated with this at times, where it seems death is all that is around.

Maybe.

Where to begin...

AF showed up on Tuesday.  Not a big deal besides she's here once again, the big deal is this starts the timeline for intervention.  Like a good student I called the RE and scheduled my appt for Thursday to do an u/s.  I broke down at home because in all of my life I never imagined IUI being a route for us, who envisions not being able to get pregnant when you spend your entire life trying not to get pregnant?

Movin' on Up.

Ok, now that the bloodwork is over and the results are coming in and a definitive test is over, time to write about it.   Here goes…

All I Ask...

Warning, this is a personal and detailed post so if you don't care to hear about the inner workings of the female body, stop reading now.

Everything you want.

Borrowed from:  http://glutendoctors.blogspot.com/2010/06/gluten-sensitivity-infertility.html

Yesterday was our first RE appointment.  A consultation.  My doctor decided it would be an excellent idea to mail my paperwork, so it wasn't there.

Back at One.

Once again, I start another cycle.  It's like Groundhog Day but worse.  You live through the motions of every month, but you can't have fun with it.  Once again, someone else is expecting.  No matter how happy you might be for them, you don't want to watch that belly grow, you don't want to see what you've been trying to achieve for over a year.  The worst thing is that I will be waiting more and more… Admitting that you need help is hard and we've hit the point that we need it.  An appointment will be scheduled with an RE and we'll go from there.

One step closer.

As with running, you are always one step closer to your goal.  Positive thinking can do a lot, but there are so many days that you just can't deal with the outside world.  Those days are meant for a run and a little BB King.  Yesterday was one of those days.  When you are young, you think you're invincible, then you grow up and sometimes that happens faster then you want.  You do everything possible to be the best person you can be, you do everything possible to be good to yourself, then you get news, news that literally throws you back on your behind.  Then the questions start...